and I'm BACK...

Hey guys,

It has been more than a year since I posted on this blog... A lot of things had happened and I just got lose control of everything. The past years wasn't that good at all...relationships failed, loosing yourself on the process and trying to start again. 

This is the reason why I also wanted to forget this blog...or maybe just end this coz I don't feel like writing anymore or I just don't have nothing to write to. I even unsubscribed to other blogs and literally just stayed away from this.

And just this morning, while I was looking through my files, I saw my unposted stuffs and well, tried to open this again.

So, here I am. And I'm thinking why not try to blog again... after all, I have a lot of stuffs learned during my hiatus and experiences too. 

So I am opening my thoughts, my world again to you... funny coz really I don't have followers here but people get to see and read my blog due to the feed I get. 

So, I hope when you get to past by, I'd loveto hear something from you. \

And today, this is going to be a brand new BLOG...WELCOME and THANK YOU for the time.

xoxo,

Only Once

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life and will stay with you till the end.”

The Art of Letting Go

It's over. H'es gone.

Why do we have to part while

the love is still there?

Why do we have to suffer?

Why do we have to cry when 

someone buds goodbye?

Why do beginnings have an end?

Why do we have to meet

only to lose in the end?There are questions left unanswered,

words left unsaid, letters left unread,

poems left undone, songs left unsung,

loved left unexpressed,

promises left unfulfilled.

In a relationship,

one of the hardest things to do

is saying goodbye and letting go.

It is as hard as breaking a crystal

because you'll never know when you

will be able to pick up the pieces again.

More often than not, they who go,

feel not the pain of parting:

it is they who stay behnd that suffer,

because they are left

with memories of love

that was meant to be,

a love that was.

At the beginning oand at the end

of a relationship,

we aere embarrassed to find ourselves alone.

Unfair as it may seem,

but that's the way lvoe goes.

That's the drama, the bittersweet

and the risk of falling in love.

After all, noting is constant but change.

Everything will eventually come to it's end

without us knowning when,

without us knowing how,

without us knowing why.

And we must forget not because we have to

but because we have to.

In letting go, sorrows come

not a single spy but in batallion.

It seems that everywhere you go,

everything you do,

every song you hear,

every turn of your head,

every move of your body,

every beat of you heart,

every blink of your eye and every breath

you take always reminds you of him.

It's like a stab of a knife,

a torture in the night.

Funny how the whole world 

becomes depopulated

when only one person is missing.

Just imagine,

there are a billion people on earth

and yet it seems you feel lonely

and empty without the other.

I dont know if it's worth calling an art,

but letting go entails

special skills sparkled

with a considerable space and time.

Time heals all wounds but it takes

a little push on out part.

Acceptance plays a part.

Not all love stories end with

"...and they lived happily ever after."

Sometimes we have to part because of

circumstances beyond our control.

We have to suffer if it would

mean happiness for others.

We have to cry to

temporarily let go of the pains.

Every beginning has its end 

like every dawn has its dusk.

It's something we can't control,

something we had to live up.

It"s over.

H'es gone. But life has to go on.

Goodbye doesn't always mean forever.

There will be a place and time 

where questions will be answered,

words will be spoken.

letters will be read,

poems will be recited in the night,

songs will be sung in harmony,

love will be expressed in solitude and

promises will be fulfilled.

Somewhere. Somehow. Someday.

I cried today, 

not because I miss you

 or even wanted you, 

but because I finally realized

 I'm gonna be 

alright without you.

nonsense day

Today's weather is a little colder, aside from a fully iced-cold office the weather outside seems dark...this makes me feel so sleepy the rest of the afternoon. I even got an allergic reaction from my lunch, probably the Lapu-Lapu is not fresh anymore. :( Thus, had to take one tablet of Celestamine..and tadah...am so drowsy already... can't work really well and so i had to take a break and a bite of this...

MAGNUM...the ice cream that has been out-of -stock for months and was selling like hotcakes before and now, you can find it anywhere without exerting too much effort in falling in lines and reservations...

Damn with diet, damn with calories, damn with fats...am gonna eat it...after eating all the three flavors then am gonna end eating them also... what's so special? the PRICE (Php50.00) and the stick with a name on it and the cover.... but it took a little of my drowsiness and headache...


time check: time to go home and sleep...